tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6834596026525717264.post4637325790441772022..comments2023-12-14T13:49:25.768-08:00Comments on This Gay Relationship: HairRick Modienhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02157314737543591048noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6834596026525717264.post-68431953334096995032009-07-29T22:30:57.922-07:002009-07-29T22:30:57.922-07:00I sincerely look forward, Wendy, to continuing our...I sincerely look forward, Wendy, to continuing our conversation on any topic, including self-esteem. What will it take for this one to go away I don't know, but, just when I think I've gotten past specific hurdles, I discover some deep-seated feelings and insecurities that set me off balance all over again. I'm just more aware of them now, and more in tune with why they are still important to me. <br />On the issue of what I wrote about today, I don't think I will ever be truly happy because I'll never be the physically masculine male that I always wanted to be, and because I will always be gay. I realize I have so many other things going for me and my life--I don't think I need to be reminded of that--but why is it we, as human beings, gravitate toward what we don't have and always wanted, instead of what we do have and never thought we'd get? Something to ponder.<br />Progress on self-esteem issues? Yes, I think we are making progress, just because we're getting older and more aware. The first step is always awareness--consciously knowing why you feel certain ways, why you behave in certain ways. I think being human is, among other things, about coming to terms with what you don't have, will never have, and making peace with that. I'm on that road now, but, man, when it comes to this whole being gay thing, I tell you, it has turned my head in ways I didn't even know. I'm only discovering them now and having to do the hard work involved in reconciling them with who I am. I suspect this will continue for the rest of my life.<br />Again, I look forward to hearing from you on this subject and any others you care to share.Rick Modienhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02157314737543591048noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6834596026525717264.post-87791555794031161052009-07-29T16:44:11.318-07:002009-07-29T16:44:11.318-07:00Rick, I'll send you an email on this topic lat...Rick, I'll send you an email on this topic later, as my comments will likely turn it into a very long one - as you already know I am prone to do! I have been reading your blogs on the self-esteem issue, thinking about how to respond. Suffice it to say that I know exactly where you're coming from in this regard - not as a gay person, but as a woman who has had plenty of self-esteem issues in her past. Another line of discussion for us to follow! Are we making any progress, do you think?Wendyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03361076209603565742noreply@blogger.com