Sometimes, I get angry. Sometimes, I get so fucking angry, I don't know what to do with myself. I need to yell and scream. I need to hit something. But the last thing I need to do--what I know I shouldn't do--is write a post on my blog (like now), because I've told myself to stay positive, to set a good example, to inspire gay men and lesbian women with my words. And, while I'm spouting off, I doubt I do that--not in the way I want to.
But today, I'm out of control. Why am I out of control? Because I read a short piece on Advocate.com that pissed me off, big time. That's why. Apparently, Oklahoma state Representative Sally Kern (this woman was elected?) equated gay people with terrorists. That's right. According to her, gay people are the same as terrorists. Terrorists? At a 2008 fundraiser, Kern is said to have gone on a homophobic rant, claiming "...homosexuality is just as detrimental to society as terrorism."
Me? Rick Modien? Fifty-one-years-old, partnered for nearly twenty years, living in the suburbs of Metro Vancouver, house organizer, home decorating freak, gardener, Disneyland fanatic, writer--a terrorist? It would be hysterical if it wasn't so pathetic. So ridiculous. So ignorant. Where does Kern get this stuff? How am I a terrorist? How are any gay people terrorists, in the same way Islamic extremists are, just by loving people of the same gender? How is that possible? How?
Apparently, I am. According to Wikipedia, here's what Ms. Kern had to say on the subject: Homosexuality '"...is the death knell of this country [the United States]. I honestly think it's the biggest threat our nation has, even more so than terrorism or Islam--which I think is a big threat, okay? Cause what's happening now is they are going after, in schools, two-year olds...And this stuff is deadly, and it's spreading, and it will destroy our young people, it will destroy this nation."'
Can you imagine what Ms. Kern would think if she found out not only am I gay, but also I write a blog to try to build up and empower gay people? To help gay people accept and love themselves? To tell them they don't deserve the discrimination and bigotry levelled against them? They don't deserve to be treated differently from the rest of mainstream society? They don't deserve to be denied their human rights? And they don't deserve to hate themselves and live in fear because of people like Ms. Kern?
Perhaps I'm a morality terrorist, then. Yeah, that's what I am. First, I'm a terrorist simply because I'm gay. But, even worse, I'm a morality terrorist because, through my writing, I work to convince straight and gay people alike that, contrary to Ms. Kern's uninformed opinion (and unfortunate public platform), homosexuality isn't immoral after all. I go completely against her religious beliefs, her moral code. Why, if you think about it, I'm undermining the very moral structure of society.
Well, Ms. Kern, if that's what you think, then I gladly accept the title. Call me a terrorist; hell, call me a morality terrorist. Because, yes, I'm gay, and, yes, I will not stand for the way gay people are treated, not by you or your ilk. Not any longer. In my view, the only thing immoral is what you spew in a public forum about people you know nothing about, and how you demean and insult them with your ignorant and bigoted words. Hate is immoral, Ms. Kern, not love. Not love.